Getting Closer...

Okay, so I officially have 4 days left in the USA. It is slowly starting to hit me more and more each day that I am actually gonna be leaving. It is making me nervous. I still have the same thoughts as I did in my last post but they are more intense now that it is getting closer. I just keep thinking that I am gonna want to come home. I would like to think that I will do fine. I would like to think that I will have no problem. I would like to think that I will love it so much that I will want to move there forever! I just can't help but think the complete opposite though. I don't know, maybe I am just being paranoid.....Yup, I think that is it. I am just paranoid. I tend to be like that from time to time.
I have started packing finally. Oh boy, am I a terrible packer. My bed is completely taken over by piles and piles of clothes and stuff that I want to take with me. Which makes sense since I am going to be there for 3 or 4 months, but I only have one big suitcase to put it all in! Yeah, major issue for this chick! I'm sure I will figure it out but this doesn't help any of my nerves that I already have. I think I am most nervous about the airports though. Just having to bring 6 months worth of prescriptions on my carry-on bags. Hopefully it will not be a hassle. I have them all in their original packages and have a letter from my doctor saying that I need them, but I guess we will just have to wait and see.
Not only am I stressed/worried about packing and just being over there in general, but I am trying to cram tons of last minute friend visits in this weekend. I've had to make a few hard decisions and plan changing in order to fit everyone in, but I will get to see the ones that mean the most to me. There are a few people that I would like to see more of, but they don't seem to care as much as I do which makes me a little upset and hurt, but what can you do? Nothing. Like I said though, I am seeing all the ones that mean the most to me. I get to see all of my best friends before I go and get to spend time with my parents and thats all that really matters. Everyone else doesn't matter in the long run. It would just be an added bonus to see a few others. It's sad when people don't keep in touch like they used to. It is hard when I am the only one that puts effort into seeing them or talking with them, but people change and people grow apart. I am learning this the hard way, but I think it's a good thing too. I may not see the benefits of it right this moment but later in life I will appreciate what is happening right now. Being around the ones that really matter though makes me so grateful to have them in my life and makes me feel very loved and that is always a good feeling. It is nice to know that there are people out there that will miss you as much as you are going to miss them.
All of that being said, I am very excited (and nervous!) to meet new people and experience new things! This is a chance of a lifetime and I am so glad that I am given this opportunity! Mom, Dad, if I haven't said it enough, Thank You! This means everything to me and I can't wait to update this silly blog with all of my crazy adventures!

-Ciao!